Tuesday, August 12, 2014

OOTD: Jeans and a Tee Shirt

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That's how I start draft posts.

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and then between the posts, I put pictures so later I can go back and add captions or whatever commentary I want. In an ootd post like today, it would read holding (photo) holding (photo) holding (photo) because sometimes the goal is just to get the pictures in and then write when I have the time. I used to just upload the pics but a few glitchy blog posts and several frustrated sighs later, I learned that just a word between the pics would 'hold' me until I was ready to talk.

I've just not really felt much like talking lately, thus, radio silence on the blog.

My life is kind of in a holding pattern right now, even at work where certain things are preventing me from doing my job properly. For someone like me, someone who prides themselves on working hard, that is difficult. Even my coworker yesterday said it - "So, you're like in a holding pattern right now". Yes, I really am.

I'm just sort of stuck. And haven't been very nice to be around.

Every minute of spare time has been spend dealing with a never ending string of dentist appointments which will probably continue well into the fall, as well as a lot of pain or being too drugged/tired from the dentist to even do anything productive with my spare time. It's been difficult.

But I know it will get better, and eventually I'll resume blogging like I never quit and I'll pick back up with writing (because I'm sooooooo close to finishing sooooo many things). I've even taken teeny steps towards my dreams of an online store (cirquedufrock.etsy.com - it's pitifully small but it's going to get bigger). I've started making things that make me really feel like an artist again, and that's been kind of important because I lost that feeling for a long, long time.

Anyway, enough whinging. On to the outfit post.

Shirt: Recon/Me, Shoes: Target, Jeans: DIY/Me/American Eagle, Necklace: Target/Recon/Me
I got this cool as hell Cape Cod Whale Watching tee shirt from the 5 for 20$ bin that Captain Vintage always has at the Punk Rock Flea Market. I LOVE it, and it fits my travel tee collection. It was a little boring, though, so I made it into a skirty bottomed tee. I also reconstructed my gold-tone deer skull necklace from Target, putting it on a contrasting gunmetal chain.


It was a perfect outfit for one of the few Saturdays I've had lately without a dental appointment. Seriously, who knew one tooth could be so much trouble? And now, even with the root taken out, I'm still in pain. It's so strange. Hopefully a permanent crown will be the end of my misery and booked-up weekends.


I almost didn't put this picture in the post, but I feel like it sums up my mood so well. Sort of disenchanted, entirely uncomfortable and generally pessimistic. ;-) I'm a charmer, as my spouse would say.

I do really, really love this outfit and I have already started chopping up ALL of my tee shirts. I could also see this being a good layering piece in the fall, which can't get here soon enough in my opinion. I'm always miserable in the summer but happy in the winter. Come on, fall, I'm waiting for you.

Until next time. <3

Monday, August 4, 2014

Writing Process Blog Hop

Hi guys! It's been a while, hasn't it? Needless to say, lots of stuff has been going on and it's been super busy over in Meghan-Land (what kind of monster invented the root canal!). 


Anyway, my very good friend Trees from Adventures of a Girl from the Naki tagged me in a blog hop! I've never done a blog hop before, really, but this one is pretty special - it's all about the writing process! Now you know how important writing is to me, so I jumped at the chance to answer these questions (also I just really like questions). 



1. What are you working on?


Right now I'm working on several things. I'm trying to get myself inspired to start back with this website- I don't know if you noticed, but I've even purchased www.cirquedufrock.com now. I miss blogging, but at the same time I've lost my voice a little. I don't know if I have much to say, but I'm trying.

In addition to that, one of my close friends and I are discussing/toying with the idea of opening our own 'publisher' where we share free e-books we've written. I am very proud of our writing, and I really hope one day I can share that with you. We write together nearly everyday and are constantly coming up with new ideas. 

In addition to both of those things, I'm still working on my series of books as well as a few short story compilation novellas. I have decided to release these as digital books on my own, without a publisher, despite some negative feedback I've had from authors on publishing without representation. I don't feel this makes me less professional or serious about my writing than any other author, and I hope that I have the passion to continue writing fiction. It's hard, though. You have to learn computer coding to do the CSS on epub files, you have to design or have someone design book covers, you have to learn all these rules for uploading and reviews- and then promote your book. All while being both the writer AND the editor. It's a lot of work, but I feel I could become invested in this. 

2. How does my work differ from others in the genre?

As far as my blog goes, I feel I'm different than other blogs because I'm theme-less. I don't want to call my blog a fashion blog, because I don't wear anything in fashion. It can't be a lifestyle blog, because I have no life to style. Right now it's random, and I do hope to streamline that into something more productive. When I had my blog so strongly tied up in my last job, I felt stifled. Like, because customers of the store read my personal blog I couldn't say things I wanted to because they would read them and ask me about it. In that same way, right now I have nothing to say because I deal with depression and many of my thoughts and words are unpleasant, and I don't want to vent that and have readers deal with that. Blogging is a hard balancing act to manage. 

My own fiction writing is very intense and often involves fantasy or paranormal elements. Fairy tales, I really like fairy tales. I can't say that my work differs from other authors in the urban fantasy genre except that I write the same way I speak, I write from my perspective, and because my perspective might be different from someone else, that sets me apart. You can ask three people to tell you the same story but you'll never hear it the same way. My perspective sets me apart, and my mission sets me apart.

3. Why do I write what I do?

I don't know.

No, that's true.

Writing for me is a lot like sewing- I have been writing stories since I was very young. Probably too young to even really know that I was writing. I think my first 'fan fiction' was a multi-chapter book I wrote in the sixth grade or so, and I started (and finished but never shared) my first complete novel in early high school. I've been writing short stories and making up stories all my life. I don't know why I write, I just know that I do write. 

I like stories. I like to tell stories. That's the bottom line, really. 

4. How does my writing process work?

My writing process varies depending on what I'm writing. If I'm composing a blog post, I like it to be quiet (or at least somewhere I can't be distracted) and I like to focus entirely on what I'm writing, because a blog post it like an article. It's a short, concentrated look into what's going on, usually in my life. 

When I'm writing with my friend, there are often gaps in between 'my turn' and 'her turn'. So I can sew, paint, write other things if I'm feeling focused, or make jewelry as we plan and write our dialogue. I really like to have music on, or TV for background noise, because sometimes I watch shows and write with her at the same time. It's amazing, kind of like playing a really complicated game of chess. 

When I write my personal novels, I like music and no interruptions, which is hard to get. But hey, it's what I like. I have specific playlists for specific pieces that I write and music influences me a lot. I usually outline in a notebook on my lunch break and come home to write full scenes and do editing/rewrites. 

No matter what I'm writing, I really like to have coffee while I do it. Coffee is my ultimate comfort drink and I rely on it. 

Now its time to continue the blog hop: 



I am supposed to tag three people, but I only asked one. I love Ally, she's one of my closest friends and I really find her perspective on her blog to be entirely unique. She's original and funny and insightful- I don't know, I just admire her writing and presentation so much. So I asked my pal to continue this hop and she said she would! I can't wait to read her answers. 

(Isn't she beautiful?) 

Find her blog here. 

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Cookin' with (Drunk) Meghan: Pulled Chicken Sandwich

This post is dedicated to my mom, who I think will find this not as funny as I do.

Today I'm going to share a new recipe with you. I made it up! And did not use an exact measuring method. It's a pulled chicken sandwich recipe. You see, pulled pork is one of my favorite foods, but I really suck at making it. I had a kind of wretched week and I thought I'd make some comfort food to cheer myself up, only, I couldn't make what I really wanted, so I made this instead.

I might like it even better.


What you'll need:

* Half a bottle of Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ sauce (I think it's Hickory Smoked?) I know this because it's all I had in my fridge.
* third of a stick of butter (dude, this is not healthy for you at all)
* Three tablespoons (or more) of Worcestershire sauce (I can't spell that. Auto correct did it for me)
* Half a cup to 3/4 cup of apple cider vinegar (Or less. I was aiming for super sour) 
* whole wheat rolls (I like the super cheap ones because they are bad for you and tasty)
* some sliced Provolone cheese
* spices. I don't know which ones.
* 3-4 boneless chicken breasts (I almost forgot to write this as an ingredient)

Directions:

Ok, so basically what you want to do is poach your chicken first. This is super important and really how I make so many of my chicken dishes because it's stringy chicken goodness. You put your chicken in a pot of water, sprinkle on salt, pepper, garlic powder and pepper (I also add Cayenne and Cajun Chicken Spice). Bring it all to a boil-y-simmer-y-thing and let it cook through. Once it's cooked, pull it out and let it cool. You can expedite the cooling process by cutting it into thirds.

At this point, you should make yourself a drink. This is drunk cooking, after all. I can definitely recommend a gin and tonic with the following ingredients: grapefruit juice, peach gin, tonic and ice. Mmmmm.

Look, Ma, I'm Sandra Lee. 

Once your chicken is cooled and shredded (DO THAT BY HAND) move on to the sauce process.

In a sauce pot, pour your half bottle of store-bought BBQ sauce. Add to it the vinegar, butter, Worchest-wordces-WORCHESTI that other brown sauce, and your spices (same as the ones you seasoned your chicken water with). Add in the shredded chicken and turn the stove on low heat, letting it all mix up together. Once it's warm enough, remove the mixture from the heat.

At this point, you might be on your second drink. Depends on how hot it is outside.

So like, now onto the plating process. What you want to do is preheat your oven to about 400 degrees (maybe less, mine runs cool). Put some parchment on a cookie sheet and then put your bun on the parchment. On the bottom half, put as much chicken as you'd like. Then place a slice of provolone over it, so the cheese will melt all over the sandwich. Place the top half of the bun, rounded side down, on the sheet next to it so it can toast, and then put it all in the oven.

I've never written a recipe before, this is hard work. (Sips gin.)

Okay at this point in sandwich assembly you might need to put the drink aside as this is about the part where I almost burned my sandwich because I forgot I was cooking.

Only leave the sandwich in long enough to melt the cheese. Maybe two minutes. Then, pull it out and carefully put your top bun on the bottom bun, and put on a plate and eat!

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I hope you've enjoyed this drunky cooking segment. I actually have a killer pancake recipe I can't wait to share with you, and now, if you'll excuse me, I've got a mess in the kitchen to clean up and a drink to finish. 

Thursday, June 5, 2014

OOTD: Purple Arrows

I'm back!

For this outfit, I'm showing off a soft purple dress I made a while back with some fabric from JoAnn's. It's a very cool repeating arrow sort of print. Usually I try to spend about $5-6 a yard when I buy fabric for new dresses (unrealistic, but I try). This fabric was actually about $10. But every time I walked past it I just couldn't help but stop and look at the pretty color and the gorgeous pattern and I didn't have anything quite like it, so in the end, I decided it was worth the cost and I got enough to make this dress.

My boyfriend loved it so much he said he wished he could have a shirt made in it. Perhaps Santa will just have to arrange for that next holiday season.

Dress: Handmade/Me, Cardi: Thrifted, Booties: DIY/Me/Roxy, Necklace: Philly Aids Thrift
This is actually my second attempt at taking outfit pictures in it. The first time I wore this dress, I got all excited and decided I was going to 'be pretty' for work that day and I wore the most uncomfortable Mary-Jane heels. I did not take pictures before I left, and by the time I got home my feet were screaming (and the Payless brand shoes that I hadn't worn in three years were flaking, so into the garbage they went).

That's alright, though, because my purple chucks are the same color as the dress, and thanks to Krista, I knew how to style them folded down.


I love those sneakers so much. Custom chucks - if I could, I'd make another pair. Also I love that belt I'm wearing- it's actually white and navy blue stripe and got it from Philly Aids Thrift. I had to take it in a bit, but I really do love it.

Anyway, that's all I've got to say for this post. Until next time!!

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Project Pictures: The Lagenlook Project

In preparation for my upcoming shopping trip to the Punk Rock Flea Market, I decided to spend this past weekend in my apartment sewing up a storm. As I've mentioned before, I've really been inspired by lagenlook type clothes, specifically this shape:

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I love how the sides come down and everything looks so super soft and pixie-like. And the bright colors! I would love to dress like this all the time (with a punk rock edge, of course) but my budget dosen't allow for $195 linen dresses. No matter how pretty and ruffly.

So I set out to reconstruct some of my old dresses and shirts into patchy Holly Hobby versions of these gorgeous dresses.



This first one is my favorite. I loved that green tee shirt but I couldn't think of what to do with it. It has been in my stash since (funny enough) the last spring Punk Rock Flea Market. It's a Captain's Vintage find. And it's two of my favorite things in one- travel tees and animal tees! I also loved this fabric. My ex-boss gave it to me for a birthday present one year. I feel like this dress turned out very well.

The next dress I'm not so fond of, but I think it's because I wasn't as fond of it before I took it apart. (You can see the original by clicking here.)



Part of it is, because I knew I didn't care what happened to this dress, I just zipped through it and that's caused some ripply seaming on the sides (my sewing machine hated the blue gingham). And I'd hoped this would be a sort of office-appropriate version of these dresses and that's just not the case. (I'll work on it.) It's ok. It's not bad. I'm probably never going to wear it, but it was a good learning experience.

I still love the first one, though.

And, like any good lagenlook style wardrobe, I needed a fluffy jacket.



I guess you could say this jacket took months of work, because I thrifted it back in October when I visited my mom. It was a nasty true-blue 90's denim, which I bleached out to look mottled and faded like I like (that ribbon never turned colors, though, it stayed the same). It was still not great, so a few weeks ago when I accidentally stumbled across that festival, I'd purchased a too-small skirt from Philly Aids Thrift. It was only a dollar and I thought I could do something with the ruffle- well I did! I hacked this jacket in half, attached the skirt and since I'd effectively gotten rid of the pockets I sewed on an old jeans pocket and a sweet toile patch. So it went from being something I'd never wear to something I'm excited to wear all the time!

If only it weren't already so damn warm in Philly.


And here is the whole look together!

I'm not going to lie, it's a dream of mine to be self-employed one day just so I can 'look' how I want to all the time. I would dress like this non-stop if there weren't dress codes (which are so silly!) and rules to what skins you're allowed to be in one what day in which place. One day, I will have pink hair and crazy dresses and combat boots.

Until then, this is my new weekend vibe.

Added to Bella's #Secondhand Fist Link up - Go check out the other cool projects and finds!

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Love List 7

Hello!

It's been a while since we've had a Love List on this blog, so I thought it was time to bring that feature back. Ever since I was younger, making 'wish lists' has always been one of my favorite activities (it's probably why I spend so much time on Pinterest). Right now, since I'm trying to both start an online store, pay off student debt and finish writing/self publish my stories, money is a little tight, and I find that making the Love List posts really inspires me to go crafting things I want/need.

Except shoes. Until I figure out how to make those, and then there will be no stopping me.

There is a loose black & white (and grey) theme here! I guess all of my inspiration is a bit more neutral these days.

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I adore everything about the dress above. I love the mis-matched stripes, the tough belt, the soft looking fabric. And I've been dying to try a banded bottom dress. This definitely has me on the look out for some tee shirts I could reconstruct into something similar.

ModCloth

Ever since I saw Kinky Boots (well, actually a bit before that, too) I've been looking at what I call 'fashionable fanny packs'. I know, no such thing, but the above one from ModCloth is adorable. It wouldn't fit my phone, though, which is a problem. I think what I really need is something like a tool belt for when I'm home and working- or even an apron! Still, these fanny pack pouches are adorable and great inspiration for future craft projects (old belt and an old coin purse and I bet you could make this).

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This picture! I relate to this picture so much! One, I, too, love Elvis AND 50's skirts, but also it reminds me of all the clothes I made with MCR logos and lyrics blazoned across the front. I love that this sort of DIY tradition has been going on for a long, long time. Yay fangirls!

Also I would wear that whole outfit.

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I was scrolling on Pinterest looking for 80's fashion inspiration for a story I was writing when I stumbled across this gem of a picture. (Or is it Jem if it's the 80's?) Those sleeves, the paint staining and tough cut of the jacket are just amazing, but I also love the bold graphic printed dress beneath! And then the plastic looking statement necklace- ugh! This whole picture. Just this whole. freaking. picture!!!!!

I might have also been considering blond as a hair color lately.

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This dress is so sweet with it's soft lace and knit fabric, but the flower appliques really appeal to me. I think this would be a good, sweet DIY inspiration and easy to replicate if you wanted to. And I want to.


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Since my experiments with wedge booties, I've still been craving wedge sneakers. There is just something about them that I love, and the ones above are by Roxy, the same brand that made my booties. I adore the floral pattern and color of the ones above.

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My mom sent me this picture for DIY inspiration! Now that I have short hair, I rock a lot of bobby pins, and I love, love, love pearls (my favorite gem) so this would be both beautiful and practical. I would love to try it with some other beads, too, so they are colorful or sparkly.

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And last but not least, even more than a pair of wedges I've been lusting after a classic black and white checkered pair of Vans. I used to have a pair of purple and black checkered ones but I got rid of them (no, I don't know what I was thinking, either!) and I've regretted it ever since. Vans look cute with dresses and jeans and they are very comfortable. I love the black and white ones because I feel they are a classic casual shoe while also being funky and fun.

Budgeting, while hard, has actually been of fun because I've had to 'shop my closet' and I've gotten back in the habit of reconstructing clothes that I already have, something I used to do more frequently and something I really used to enjoy and am happy to be doing once more. I can't wait to show you what I've come up with and I definitely can't wait to share more of my inspiration pictures with you.

And for something completely different, here is a song I've been obsessing over for a few weeks now. I've fallen in love with Radio 104.5 Philly - it's the local alternative sort of station - and I adore the song "Pompeii" by Bastille. Actually, I first heard it just a few weeks after we saw the Pompeii exhibit at the Franklin, which was kind of neat.



The video is also super cool.

Until next time!

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

OOTD: Lancaster Picnic

And there I go, dropping off the radar again.

Not that I haven't been reading, I have, I've just not had a whole lot to say!

I've been trying to be productive, and that has taken a lot of energy. I'm trying really hard to keep my goals for myself while also trying to balance fun nights with the mister and writing with my friend. Sometimes it works better than others, and I have to remind myself a lot that I am allowed to have fun. I forget that sometimes, when I'm so focused on trying to 'get things done' that I'm allowed to be, to quote my mother, 'frivolous'. I have a really hard time with allowing myself to be lazy or unproductive or just relaxed, and it's been really stressful inside my head lately. So, lack of blog posts.

Unfortunately I set a goal for myself that I would have one of my mini-books available at the end of May and while it is in the editing stages, it's also a week to the end of May and that's not happening, so I feel very disappointed in myself.

On a happier note, I'm here with a new dress that certainly puts a smile on my face.

Dress: Handmade/Me, Shoes: Chucks/Ross, Cardi: Thrifted, Owl Necklace: The Mister

As many of you who follow my blog know, I force my mother to take me to the Lancaster Goodwill every time I go to visit her. She tolerates this (lovingly so) because she knows it is the best Goodwill to me. I really scored the last time I went with her because I found all these handmade table cloths that were perfect for making dresses! There were three in each 'set' and just enough fabric for a dress out of each. This is a saturated soft blue with pink and yellow roses on it. It's so springy! I used my favorite dress pattern and I've already worn it twice. I'm rockin' the chucks here even though it's a work outfit because they are the only practical rain shoe I have (and that's not saying much). Also, chucks are super comfy and no one can really see my feet under the desk anyway.

I'm loving my new dress, my hair, and my owl necklace lately. Also, I've been experimenting with not smiling in photographs and I find I actually sort of like my face that way. It's always good to find things you like about yourself.

Well, I'm going to go try and edit a chapter or two before bed (even though it's already midnight here). Until next time!